Embarassing and Frustrating
Posted at 11:05 PM

Embarassing and frustrating it is.

Hindi ko na ata kayang mag-antay ng apat na taon pang muli para maka-alis sa bahay na ito. Ang gulo-gulo ng pamamalakad. Gagawa ka ng tama, maninita ng sa tingin mo mali pero ang nasa pusisyon pagtatawanan ka lang. Ikaw tuloy ang kontrabida. Ikaw ang parte ng pamilya pero kung sigaw-sigawan ka ng katulong akala mo ikaw ang binabayaran. Isusumbong mo sa magulang mo, pagtatawanan ka lang, kesyo ikaw daw ang may pinag-aralan ikaw daw dapat ang umintindi. Hanggang kailan ka iintindi? 

Ang Shema. Bow.

I had to pay a much higher price monthly for a year with Shema because they had given the voucher to a labandera. Inuna pa ang katulong kesa sa anak.

Ang DVD player. Bow.

He bought a new dvd player with higher features than of the one that is existing in the house. He gave it away to the same labandera, don't ask me why! Why not give it to me or to my brother, we don't have our own yet? Are we actually even earning that much to give away appliances?!

Ang mga damit ni Lola. Bow.

This is just too sad. Few weeks after Lola passed away, I asked for her clothes only to find out the labanderas got them already. I asked to get them back. I was denied. This makes me cry upto now. She is my Lola. I am the apo. You are the daughter, how can you not do anything about it?

Ang dami-dami pang insidente at pagkakataon. Ayoko nang alalahanin pa.

No matter how hard you try upon doing your best to straighten up things around the house it won't make any difference if the real authorities do not make any efforts. Namimihasa kasi pinamimihasa. This makes me want to quit schooling, have a job, and live on my own. If I cant go against the flow I'd rather get out of it than go with it.