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Posted at 12:41 AM

May 22, 2009 (Fri) 7:20pm

 

 

      I'm currently in a coffee shop at Techno Hub. I'm with Keypi who's trying to study for her upcoming board exam while I goof around with the laptop. I brought Flatops with me thinking there'd be a wifi service in here which shockingly I am wrong. Because of that I am surprisingly trying to write anything gistful again but to my dismay all I can scribble is this senseless thought: I've lost my groove as well as my pride. Just this Tuesday, I've applied at Teletech for the position of costumer service representative and I got the very fast result the very next day--I'm in. Though I'm thankful I've gone through their interviews and exams in all likelihood, this is so unlike me. I have no grudges or whatsoever with call center agents. It's just that I'm going to lose my degree if I'm going to give in for it. But then again with my current work I think I've lost it already. I am writing as I am thinking and I am confused. Doing freelance in advertising, as what I am doing now, dubbing-directing in particular, is fun and prosperous-ful, believe me it is. I don't have to go to work everyday but the money won't come regularly either. But when it comes watch out big time. The thing is I want a regular job. A job where I'd know exactly my schedule way ahead of time, a job that will pay me regularly. Either of the two jobs in front of me doesn't have anything to do with my music degree anyway, then what am I confused of? When it all comes down to it, I just don't really really know what I really really want to do for a living. What I'm positively sure of at the moment is that I do not want to teach classroom-music for the mean time. Ditch the degree...and the license, I'm just not into it right now. I'm not closing my teaching career though. Maybe someday I'd be grateful to teach again, just not today.

 

        What the heck...who even cares for this stuff nowadays?

 

 

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        Ok, it’s been three hours and I’m running out of things to do. I tried to make a photo-tribute about my relationship with Marvin using Win Movie Maker. Inspiration is not enough. Bummed.

 

        I have the psp right beside me but I don’t feel like playing with it, it’s sad to think I fell out of love with it just when Flatops came along a month or so ago. I’m thinking of selling it out. I'm just not a gamer. Just the way how Matt would burst it, “sayang ang energy”. Teehee. That man had changed a lot. He’s began to be very spiritual, filling in too much of optimism. That’s a good thing though. Wish I could have such vibe.